today went to sch as per normal but the onli diff me 3 of my friends will be working other lecturers for their proj while we resume our training for the final round...

1st task of the day: Theory paper

OMG!!! theory paper about 1 mth after the QR is almost a complete killer for me... some of the questions really took me sometime to fingure out... while some hav jus the same old simple logic still took me so long really make me feel abit lousy for the day...
Near the end of the day, watched a movie in the lab to relax awhile before goin off...

Met my gf after sch n went to popular n somewhere near her hse to check out some stuff... lately hav been offended by my gf's words very easily... so sorry my dear.. it really makes me feel so useless whn she say those harsh stuff as a joke to me... i dono y i cant really take those words as jokes recently as i really feel very useless in some areas n in additional to those, i really feel very affected. sometime i jus cant help think of times whn i was young whn trouble (fan niao) is nv a problem that would ever occur on me. but i oso noe it would come eventually as i grow older but i oso understood that aids n supports would be around as the troubles came by...

in the beginning things was goin jus fine even whn my mum was mostly onli concern about my needs and nt my feelings. i had a great gf that supports me n cheer me up everytime wif her smile wif simple things n words from me. but lately things hav got worse whn my mum starts to give me advices n 0% of encouragement or praises. i noe it seems kind of childish but it really make me feel sad whn there is nt even a single statement of encouragement from my mum which turns all her advices as pressure n burden to me instead... slowly whn my gf loves to joke more on negative words which is similar to stuff that comes from my mum, i jus felt worse n dishearted as days go by.

i jus wish for someways to let off my pressure lik before... jus some simple ways or things that can alot me to loosen up abit that is almost propotionate to my lvl of pressure. (1:10)? which is more thn enough by nw is lik (0:10)? problems really hav been building up and solutions were nv the best which leave some residue as regrets in me.

Hope the sun will shine soon after the rain...